So we finally moved to our new office cubicles. Can't say I liked it, having lost my previous kingdom of privacy and my two tech buddies, the ever hilarious Mr. Wan and Mr. Ayah, Aidil. They were two of the few reasons why I liked coming to the college. I kinda regret the times where I declined to join them for lunch, going to the digital mall and usha-ing all the latest graphics card and casings, preferring to sit in my cubicle, surfing the net and doing some admin related work.
But then again I realized I have always been that way. I liked being alone. Now before you accuse me of being a 'kera sumbang', let me affirm that I enjoy the company of people, people that I like of course, pretty much like everyone else. But most of the time I'd rather do things by myself, because I like that space of doing things at my own pace. When I go to a certain place it has to have a purpose. I don't like it when I want to contemplate on buying a something, I have to be dragged by friends who clearly have their own agendas. I get lost in my thoughts a lot, thinking hard on so many things, and I can't simply do that if there are people around me.
I don't hate people, I just don't want them around me most of the time. And I just can't explain it to everyone.
It is not a problem though, I have had few (very few) friends who understood this unspoken rule (or selfishness, whatever you feel towards it) of mine. They'd just let me be and not assume the worst of me, and know that I'm around when the time comes. Like Mr. Wan and Aidil were. Thank you dudes.